Tuesday, November 08, 2005

insomnia

INSOMNIA

I know I should sleep but how can I when the world is caving in around me?

It's all about to come crashing down, not only for me, but for my children who really don't deserve this to happen to them.

Clearly, I deserve all that I get, but they don't.

I want to go to sleep and not wake up, but even that is eluding me.

This is not hormonal. This is what happens when someone you once loved decides to twist the knife in every which way possible.

I'm so scared.

4 Comments:

Blogger CycleGuy said...

Be strong DF.
Remember S is there for you. Hell, we're all here for you for moral support.
Just don't give up!

12:19 AM  
Blogger S said...

Baby, I know it seems like the future is impossible and unreachable, but I am here for you and I'm never going anywhere. Remember everything we talked about today before he rang? It holds true even more now. I love you Deadly. With all of my heart and soul. Til the day I die and even after. And you have people here who care about you.

S.

2:57 AM  
Blogger Sasha said...

be strong woman... be strong! cliche i know but there's always something good that comes out of every bad thing...

7:56 AM  
Blogger Lil Bit said...

I can't even imagine how much of a difficult time this has to be for you, girl... You've got friends here in cyberland, tho - reach out to us anytime you need a shoulder/ear, k? *hugs*

2:25 PM  

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