emails across the distance

EMAILS ACROSS THE DISTANCE

me to ~S~

*sigh*

I miss you baby.

I miss you so much.

Please find something to fill this empty space where you should be.

I made some lunch - lentil soup and bread - it was pleasant enough but would have tasted better with you beside me.

It's cold here too. I need your arms around me.I just miss you.

I love you forever

xxx


~S~ to me

Baby if I find something to fill that empty space, where do I go? :o( I hate you feeling this way, but I'm scared of the alternative...

I love you.

xxx


me to ~S~

Baby, you don't go anywhere without me.

I guess I'm just struggling to cope with being apart from you. I know I have to cope. I know I will eventually learn to cope. It just feels so hard today. I sit at the PC re-reading all our old conversations and emails. I look at your pictures constantly. My heart aches so much.

I love you ~S~, and try as I might nothing will fill that empty space. You are the only one that is a perfect fit.

xxx


~S~ to me

Writing is the only answer. It's the best therapy. Write on your blog. Write in Word. Just write. How you feel. Write about nothing


me to ~S~

There is nothing else. There is only you.

You need to work, I'll stop distracting you now.

I love you forever

xxx


~S~ to me

You are all I care about. Not work, not anything else. I am alone right now.


me to ~S~

Baby I love you. I am so so cold, I can't stop shivering.

Just put your arms around me and hold me? Please?

xxx


~S~ to me

Feel my arms around you. My heartbeat matching yours. My warm touch igniting tiny fires within you. I love you forever.



Sorry about yesterday.

For the first time I'm having to get used to not being able to speak with ~S~ as much as usual - her new job has very limited internet access. She can check emails periodically but not very often. It's just hit me so much harder than I ever thought it would and yesterday was a knee jerk reaction to that.

In fact, she had woken in a panic in the middle of the night, realising that she hadn't emailed or messaged me and anticipating my reaction. She called me, as she always does, and we talked as we always do. And yes, it made me feel so much better. It always does.

Like most people, I've been having blogger problems today. So if you left me a comment yesterday and it isn't showing, it's because blogger has helpfully deleted it. It did at least have the decency to send it to my inbox beforehand so I have seen all comments, I think. And if this post spontaneously combusts then it'll be blogger. But then if it spontaneously combusts you won't even see this to know about it *laughs*